Getting to know the heart of God

Church today was amazing! It totally connected with the book I'm reading, The Pressure's Off, by Larry Crabb. It's complicated, but at the same time refreshing. Knowing that I don't have to be perfect is such a load off. I've lived all these years as a christian thinking if I follow these certain rules, if I "be good" I'll have a good life. I've tried so hard to make life work. The truth is, being a christian is harder than I thought! My desires are changing from wanting "things" from God to wanting to know God. I want to know God's heart. Pastor Matt's message today was geared towards that. It hit home. I hope you were there or if not that you would tempted to listen to it. I think it's online at the church website. Anyway, I'm learning that the pressure's off. I don't have to try to make life work because the ultimate blessing is to know Him. I don't have to "be good" all the time. The more I get to know Him, my heart won't care about worldly things, worldly desires which I think is part of human nature and only care about God's heart.