Thoughts

Today, I'm on total burn out! My students didn't treat me very well today no matter how patient or nice or calm I was, it was no use. They just couldn't keep their mouths closed, stop arguing, or pay much attention. There are some who do pay attention and really do care about school and try their best and I'm very thankful for them. I wish I could come home and relax but that's not an option for most moms. I like my friend Irene's post on the invisible mom. It basically talks about how us moms are seen as care givers and doers, and in the end it's all worth it. She said it a whole lot better than I just did. If I knew how to link her blog here so that you could just click it and it would pop up I would (Brian, can you show me how to do that)??

It's pretty intense at work right now, besides the whole teaching 34 kids 17 to 20 different things each day thing, helping them turn into young gentlemen and young ladies thing, and bringing basic kids up to proficient thing.

There's this whole pink slip thing. Although I am thankful for not having received a pink slip at this time (you never know what they'll come up with next), a lot of my friends have and that just makes for some sad days. It's so unknown and that's hard for a lot of people. There is talk of having 40 students instead of 34 from 4th to 8th grade, cutting custodians, classified staff, and more! That again, makes things tense. One thing that I am glad for is that I'm not in control. The only thing I can control is how I react to a situation. I'm not always proud of how I react to things, but I am working on that part of me. There is nothing I can do except for pray, offer encouragement, try to bring a smile to those around me, and rely on the only thing that keeps me going so often, and that is my Heavenly Father. I'm so glad He's in charge and that I don't have to figure any of this out. As for my students, it's up to me to respond in a way that is pleasing to Him and in a way that my students will know I belong to Him.