Our day

I started journaling for the boys when Drew was just a little guy. I started because I was determined for them to know what their life was like before they could remember things. Another reason is, if I died before they could remember things, my hope was that they would know how much they were loved by their mom. Now that they are older and do remember things that we do and we are all bonded and we all survived thus far, I haven't journaled as much. Now I pretty much journal once every few months. So I decided that this here blog could be my journal and hopefully one day I could have it printed.

So this week, we've been consumed with Valentine card making (56), valentine box making, heart pancakes, piano, den meetings, and voice practice. The boys have not played outside much, which is kind of unusual. They get to play for two hours or so after homework each week.

Today, we haven't done much. I really wanted to have no plans, not spend any money, and have a day inside. This also saved me money on gas. The boys wrestled with the dog and each other. Matt is working so we'll do the same thing tomorrow. Thankfully, Matt has Monday off from school. We are secretly planning a Valentine breakfast for Matt when he gets home on Sunday morning. It's going to be a complete surprise. He deserves it. Pictures to come for that.

Each week is interesting around here. The boys are maturing each and every day, which is a big relief. I question sometimes my mothering and how'll they turn out. I ask myself if my expectations are too high, do I push too hard, are they going to turn out ok (that's a daily worry), do they feel loved even when I'm not super happy with them. I know that all comes with being a mom. I also know I'm not in charge so the pressure's off a little bit. Thanks for listening to my thoughts. I'm sure I'm not the only one to struggle with these things.